So many options… Life in Los Angeles is what you make of it.  It can be an amazing experience, such as when I first came out here in 2003 or it can be stressful and crazy, just depending on what is going on in your life at that moment in time.  For me, this time back out in Los Angeles is not as amazing as it was in 2003 (back then I came out here to go to acting college, I was living my dream of acting, meeting a ton of new people, enjoying life 100%, working hard but loving every minute of my life).  Now life is much easier for me and I am not enjoying it as much.  I have also said though and everyone close to me knows that I am only happy if I am busy and I have not been as busy as I was the first few years I lived here.

I have been thinking about my options and what I want next out of life and living in Los Angeles.  I decided I wanted to start taking acting classes.  I audited an acting class a few weeks ago and I realized how much that I needed to take classes and how much I missed taking classes. Like every other career, you always study, take classes or keep on it, whatever that may be (singer – vocal lessons, dancer – dance classes, teachers – continuing education, etc) so why have I not been taking acting classes?  The only reason I had before was an excuse, a bad one too – that I could not afford to take them.  Yet I would spend anywhere from $5-$15 a day at Starbucks, if you add that up for a month that is anywhere from $150-$450 which would cover my costs of acting classes. 

I also feel like I am stuck in a dead-end job of being a studio manager at a casting studio.  I loved it at first because I thought it would help out my career and I was engulfed in the acting industry, including seeing and meeting casting directors daily.  What I did not realize was that I would have to do more than just manage a studio.  In order for me to work full time, I would also have to work for another company within the company that I work for that has absolutely nothing to do with acting or the entertainment industry.  It is rather boring and beyond my comprehension and it actually makes me mad, angry and frustrated that they even expect me to work for this other company not to mention it’s a huge waste of my time.

Once I figured out what was making me unhappy, I decided to fix it.  Although I have not put in my two week notice at my studio manager job, I have started to look for other positions in network companies and started to look for producer jobs or jobs that I can work my way up in to eventually become a producer.  I also started to work on a short film with my good friend Kara which we hope to produce and film this May. So, goals for the next month – find a new job that makes me happy, start an acting class, work on our script to shoot in May, get ready to meet with agencies, work on a few monologues and FOCUS on my DREAM!